Happy birthday son!

This is Tommy. He's a stud. I mean, just look at him.

Tommy always makes me happy. He is our firstborn son, and was born on this day in 2009. So he'd be 5 today!

He passed away 3 1/2 years ago. When he was born we found out that his journey would be a bit different than that of most. He was born blind, had hormonal deficiencies, had hydrocephalus, and overall was going to develop slowly. But none of that had the smallest chance of keeping him from lighting up our lives.

As he grew older he started to sleep more and more. We found out that he was having infantile tremors, or seizures, and they were leaving him exhausted. They for the most part were imperceptible.

So thus began many tests and procedures. We were able to get him on some great medication that drastically reduced his seizures.

For a while there, things were great. We had one full month of him being awake, alert, and happy.

One Sunday Nita and I just stayed home and had fun as a family. It was a wonderful day. Tommy was happy. He had no seizures, and overall it was a great day. 

That night we put him down to bed, said we loved him, and left him to sleep. 

Now, I hold a belief in the afterlife. I believe in the nature of the eternal soul. I believe that Tommy left this life, and now dwells with my Heavenly Father. 

I miss the guy. It hurts. A lot. 

But not all happiness is gone. Tommy's siblings continue to light up our lives in their own, unique ways. 

But let it be known that I have a son, his name is Tommy, he passed away, I miss him, I love him, and believe that one day I can see him again.

We love you Tommy!